[Testimony] I am a Daughter of Zion

This was my 3rd year attending SHINE. The past 2 years were great, but this year was truly different. The first night of SHINE, I was so inspired by Deborah Cobrae’s message of loving the unlovable. My mother was with me this year and we both laughed afterward at how our problem wasn’t with unlovable strangers, but rather unlovable people we were in relationship with.

For me it is not only family, but people at work, and sometimes church. I felt like God was speaking to me to bring this before Him. The next morning we arrived early and while in line, I felt the tug so strong to go to the Prayer Room and bring this before the Throne.

Once in the room, I found someone I knew and asked her to pray with me. After briefly sharing my problem, she looked at me and said that she felt the Holy Spirit telling her that I have deep rejection issues. This is sooo true! I have been rejected so many times in my life! The Holy Spirit impressed on her that I needed a healing from memories. Again, this was sooo true!

We began praying and she asked the Holy Spirit to begin revealing the memory that first brought the rejection into my life. Although many scenes flashed in my head, I kept stopping on one.

I was 16 and had just realized that my father wasn’t going to write anymore. He had rejected me for a second time. The first was when I was 3 years old.

As I began to sob, God granted me a beautiful vision:

I was standing there weeping and Jesus appeared (His face hidden) and scooped me into His arms as He called me “Daughter of Zion.” Next, I saw His footprints in the sand and knew He was carrying me. That poem has long since been an inspiration in my life.

Suddenly the vision changed and I saw a reflection of me to my left. I was dressed in black and my face was horribly disfigured. A bright light appeared to my right and when I turned I saw the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. She was dressed in a long, white robe and she was golden and flowed as if in a breeze. Light radiated from every pore of her body.

Suddenly Jesus was before me and he pointed to my left and said, “This is how you see yourself, but this” pointing to my right, “is how I see you. You’ll never be able to love the unlovable in your life until you learn how to finally see and love yourself the way I do.”

Precious daughters of the Most High King, if this is your story too, share in the vision He gave me and know that we are more than what we allow ourselves to see!

The next time you look in the mirror and think low of yourself, cling to the vision of our Father truly sees us! Be blessed.

Thank you Pastor Kerri for your passion, heart, faithfulness and obedience.

Posted on: May 15th, 2008